March 12, 2014

11:52pm

I told him that I was not feeling okay. He simply replied with, “Cry it out,” seeming that it’s just that easy for him, and that it is no big deal. I was secretly hurt.

My heart has been carrying too much weight in it already, of something explosive. My entire body is trembling at the thought of him leaving. I am not ready for this. I am not ready for another goodbye.  

But even it’s not yet time for him to leave yet, I am already grieving. Because, even without him saying a word, I know it is going to be soon. What more when that day already comes. I fear that day.

I used to be excited about tomorrow everytime I sleep. But not until today. I am afraid to sleep for I do not know if you’re still going to be there when I wake up tomorrow.  Somehow, I wish the time would freeze at the present time, while we are together. But that wish would never happen, just like you that would never stay.